Can my tears sustain a sea life?
I experienced devastating loss in Autumn 2019. Death of a friend, of a close family member and a terminal illness, and a subsequent passing of another friend. I have cried many tears during this time while dealing with grief, and at some point I started to collect them in a small container.
Then the pandemic has started. New uneasy sensation has entered my life with a sense of restlessness and unpredictability humming in the background, amplifying already present anxiety. Tears became a sort of soothing remedy for me, their 'presence' intensified by a knowledge that so many other people felt the same way.
During this time I read 'Flights' Olga Tokarczuk (Nobel Prize in Literature 2019) and there was a short story where this question was posed: How to Make an Ocean. It struck a chord with me because I spent my childhood on the open ocean, I live by the sea and sea is a huge part of my life.
With so many tears I started to wonder whether it is possible to cultivate some marine life in them. To make something life affirming was my way to deal with this devastating loss - not only personal or caused by pandemic, but also environmental.
How to Make an Ocean is my journey through the past 18 months, an experience of the narrative in a form of multi-facade installation, in which the audience is invited to look at the collection of tears and life present in them, and also in which willing participants, with help of AI Moirologist Bot are invited to try to shed some tears, so that they can contribute to the growth of my mini-oceans.